Writing During COVID-19: Dissociation or Heightened Engagement?

The July–August 2020 issue of Poets & Writers includes a feature titled “Authors on Creativity in Quarantine.” Thirteen authors describe their (in)ability to write during the COVID-19 lockdown. Many include general ruminations on the writing life. Among the statements that resonated with me: “Writing is a form of dissociation. In the hours of real absorption, you leave behind your room, your body, even the mind you imagine as your own. I needed badly to experience that freedom precisely because I sensed how long it would be before I would have it again” (Author Adam Haslett). Psychologists define dissociation as “ranging from a mild emotional detachment from one’s immediate surroundings to a more severe disconnection from physical and emotional experiences.” In contrast to this mental disorder, writing more fully immerses me in the thoughts, feelings, and physicality of my characters, and the sensory attributes of the environment I’m creating. Hence I prefer the term “heightened engagement” to describe the writing process. Authors dissociate from the immediate world in order to associate more intensely with our imagined one. For more of my thoughts on writing, see REFLECTIONS.

Why writers write: “Most of our lives are mundane and dull. It’s up to the writer to find ways to make them interesting.” – John Updike

Learn History Through Fiction: Racism 100 Years Ago: “Clear ‘Em Out … Or Else”

“I ain’t moving til this nigger-loving lady clears out the premises.” A quote from the historical novel Tazia and Gemma. After the 1911 Triangle Shirtwaist fire in New York City, an unwed immigrant and her young daughter flee west in search of freedom and encounter racism in Kansas in the early 1900s. Read more about the book in NOVELS.

Racist threats were never confined to the South
Tazia and Gemma (Vine Leaves Press) by Ann S, Epstein

Learn History Through Fiction: Racism 100 Years Ago: “A Target for Trouble”

“‘What the hell, is that a white woman riding with them?’ one of the white men yells. Too late, Tazia ducks behind Denton.” A quote from the historical novel Tazia and Gemma. After the 1911 Triangle Shirtwaist fire in New York City, an unwed immigrant and her young daughter flee west in search of freedom and encounter racism in Kansas in the early 1900s. Read more about the book in NOVELS.

A white woman with a black man was asking for trouble
Tazia and Gemma (Vine Leaves Press) by Ann S. Epstein

Learn History Through Fiction: Racism 100 Years Ago: “Blood-Spattered Snow”

“Tazia draws aside the curtain. Snow dampens the sound, but she sees a line of Negro men facing an angry white mob. Everyone is still standing but blood spatters the mounting drifts of white.” A quote from the historical novel Tazia and Gemma. After the 1911 Triangle Shirtwaist fire in New York City, an unwed immigrant and her young daughter flee west in search of freedom and encounter racism in Kansas in the early 1900s. Read more about the book in NOVELS.

The Ku Klux Klan revived in popularity after the 1915 release of “The Birth of a Nation”
Tazia and Gemma (Vine Leaves Press) by Ann S. Epstein

Learn History Through Fiction: Racism 100 Years Ago: “Racism and Misogyny”

“Well, Ma’am. I’ve always hired Negroes. I admire their work ethic. But a woman …” A quote from the historical novel Tazia and Gemma. After the 1911 Triangle Shirtwaist fire in New York City, an unwed immigrant and her young daughter flee west in search of freedom and encounter racism in Kansas in the early 1900s. Read more about the book in NOVELS.

Racism and misogyny have historically limited economic opportunity
Tazia and Gemma (Vine Leaves Press) by Ann S. Epstein

Taking Chances Without Fear

“I’ve always worried about all possible outcomes for anything I ever embarked on,” he said. Writing and directing appeared to be “a way for me to take chances without the same fear.” (“Charlie Kaufman’s Head Trips” by Jon Mooallem in The New York Times Magazine, July 05, 2020) Charlie Kaufman’s self-analysis rings true for me as a writer too, and I see how it would also apply to directing a film. If writers see something that isn’t working, they can delete or revise the text. Likewise, directors can cut or reshoot the segment. Most artists can change a work-in-progress, which allows us to take chances. The consequences of messing up are less dire in fiction or fantasy than they are in real life. After all, it’s only a book or movie (or painting, etc.). You can scrap it before you publish or release the work. Even if you put it out there, while you might get a bad review (and take a blow to your self-esteem), the risk to yourself is rarely higher, nor is it likely to hurt others. Creative work allows us to flirt with failure. We can even absolve ourselves of responsibility by claiming, “That was the character, not me.” For more of my thoughts on writing, see REFLECTIONS.

Charlie Kaufman’s felted self-portrait in The New York Times Magazine profile by Jon Mooallem
Why writers write: “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” – Maya Angelou

The Blue Nib: The Write Life Publishes “Getting Above My Raisin’”

I’m happy to announce that my essay “Getting Above My Raisin’” is now online at The Blue Nib: The Write Life. The essay looks at why writers feel they don’t merit top-tier agents or publishing contracts. Unlike “imposter syndrome,” a psychological condition whose sufferers doubt their competence, “getting above one’s raisin’” is rooted in the conviction that one is from the wrong social demographic. I’d love to hear back if you do (or don’t) experience something similar and how you interpret your reaction. Please leave a comment here or on the essay link. Read more about this article and others in ESSAYS.

The Blue Nib: The Write Life publishes craft and personal essays
Why writers write: “Writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can see only as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.” – E. L. Doctorow

Learn History Through Fiction: Racism 100 Years Ago: “Who’s for Hire?”

“The sky is light enough for Tazia to read the signs: NIGGER LOVER, NO COLORED IN KANSAS, NO SLAVES FOR HIRE. The marchers swig from jugs of whiskey.” A quote from the historical novel Tazia and Gemma. After the 1911 Triangle Shirtwaist fire in New York City, an unwed immigrant and her young daughter flee west in search of freedom and encounter racism in Kansas in the early 1900s. Read more about the book in NOVELS.

Self-styled local Kansas militia armed and liquored-up for a race war
Tazia and Gemma (Vine Leaves Press) by Ann S. Epstein

Learn History Through Fiction: Racism and Poverty 100 Years Ago: “It Takes a Community to Feed Empty Mouths”

“Lula Mae ladles deep into the pot. ‘We can always feed another couple of mouths.’” A quote from the historical novel Tazia and Gemma. After the 1911 Triangle Shirtwaist fire in New York City, an unwed immigrant and her young daughter flee west in search of freedom and encounter racism in Kansas in the early 1900s. Read more about the book in NOVELS.

Racism and poverty are kin
Tazia and Gemma (Vine Leaves Press) by Ann S. Epstein

Learn History Through Fiction: Racism 100 Years Ago: “Lynching North of the Mason Dixon Line”

“Just cause this ain’t the South, don’t mean white folks aren’t afraid to burn and lynch Negroes.” A quote from the historical novel Tazia and Gemma. After the 1911 Triangle Shirtwaist fire in New York City, an unwed immigrant and her young daughter flee west in search of freedom and encounter racism in Kansas in the early 1900s. Read more about the book in NOVELS.

Northern defenders of white supremacy
Tazia and Gemma (Vine Leaved Press) by Ann S. Epstein